I slept until noon today. It felt really good.

I am so content and so happy with my life right now. Everything is going so well. Everything is moving in the right direction.

I have had just the break that I needed. Its ended up being a 5 weekend and only spent $150. The best. Ella got some qt in with her Dad, MomMom, Frank and Uncle. I got some scarves, a couple books and a pretty sweet stencil on an ugly bag I had.


I love progression.

April 15th one of my brothers close friends killed himself.
This is the second one of my brothers friends to do this in the past year.
I don't know what is going on.
These are kids... 16... 17...

Something is going on. This kind of thing should never happen. Let alone twice in one year. I know I cant save the world but there has to be something to do.

Suicide is never the answer... I don't get what could be going on in these kids minds. They have so much ahead of them. Both kids were your average neighborhood kid. Come to find out the first kid was bullied, beat up and kicked out of a party. The kid last week had an argument with his girlfriend over her cheating. I just don't get it. It has really gotten under my skin.

Even at its worst life is worth living. I feel like hawking over my brother. I feel nauseous. Both instances my brother saw the kids hours before they ended their lives.

I am rambling but this has been on my mind for days and I can not grasp it. I know its pretty simple but there has to be something that I can do....?