be-in

its so sad when you waste hope on people who do not even have hope in themselves.


after my lapse of judgment over the weekend I am back on track. it took this weekend for me to realize that I am so happy. So happy and I never knew it. I love the life I have created for Ella and I in the past year. It has been trial and error and we have some rough spots but it is so perfect for now. I love my friends and family so much. I never realized how much mental strain was put on me from an unhealthy relationship. This past weekend of trying to help put me right back in the slump of no patience, frustration and exhaustion. I cleared my head today. It felt good. I cut all lose strings and I am ready to go...

I am still recovering form exhaustion but I have so much to look forward to. School is going. Not as great as I would like but I should be able to focus now. Most of all I am looking forward to South Carolina in 8 days. it is going to be 4 whole days of now work, no school, nothing! Just sand, sun, salty air and my good friend. Not Maryland!!!!!!!

Its time for bed. Last night was rough.